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Mind, Body, Soul
I'm Glad
By Mona Lease
Greetings, Gals!! This book I'm reading is in such simple form. I
wanted to share this with you readers. I know a few of you who will
say: "Wow, just....wow!" Consider the following.
"The Art of Letting Go" - "I'm Glad It Didn't Work Out Between Us" -
Chapter 3 - Marisa Bagnato
I'm glad it didn't work out between us.
Well, all of you. (And by "you" I mean my exes.). But nobody in
particular. Thank you for falling short of my expectations, but for
giving me new reasons to have higher ones. Thank you for personifying
every person's nightmare in a relationship. For the cheating, lying,
emotional abuse, and indifference. Thank you for giving me those
experiences, only because they allowed me to determine what my lines
were, and when you crossed them. I am indebted to your actions - they
made my skin so thick that you can't even see the blood course through
my veins anymore. Yet I am still alive.
I'm not trying to say you were all bad. Truthfully, you had good
aspects - that's why we dated, ex-boyfriends. But they were not enough
to keep us together. They could not satiate me and my need to be
respected, appreciated, or valued. And the sole reason for that is
simple: I respect, appreciate, and value myself far too much to have
stayed. Thank you for letting me go, thank you for letting me leave.
Your indifference taught me that I could not be indifferent to my own
needs, ex-boyfriends. And that is a powerful lesson that I might not
have learned had you not been so dismissive of me. Your emotional abuse
and manipulative tactics taught me I could not tolerate being
disrespected.
Your lies and deceit made me realize how much I valued myself, my body,
and the right to leave a situation that puts either in danger.
I did not need you to learn these things, ex-boyfriends. But thanks to
you, I learned it sooner. My experience has helped me to see how much
power there is in being alone. I took some time to reflect on my
choices. I realized that, too often, I spent time on people who didn't
think of me half as much. I gave to people who could only take. I loved
people who could only give me apathy. I grew from this.
I had an epiphany in that time. That those things you did to me
bothered me, hurt me, and destroyed me, and they did so because deep
down, I knew I deserved better. I wanted better. And in order to find
that, I had to treat myself with dignity, respect, and love. A lot of
love.
I'm not trying to hurt you, ex-boyfriends. I also don't have any real
hard feelings. I'm in a good place, a place I never would've reached
with you. And if that truth is a devastating one, I am sorry. But I am
not sorry for needing, deserving, and wanting more for myself.
I hope you change the things that take people away from you, and that
you find happiness - alone or with another person. I hope you grow from
the things you did, too.
But really, I'm so thankful it didn't work out between us.
It worked out just great for me.
The holidays are coming gals. Keep reaching. Keep stretching. It's all
within reach. Don't lose sight of your dreams and goals
"Sometimes all you need is for someone to just be there, even if they
can't solve your problems. Just knowing there is someone who cares can
make all the difference." - sun.gazing.com
The best is yet to be!! MONA
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