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Mind, Body, Soul
Forever
Thankful
By Mona Lease
Greetings, Gals!! As I pen this...it is snowing. My yardstick says
there is 4" of the white stuff on my trash toter. And - I'm
thankful!! It's January. The snow is supposed to be here. Do I
like it? Nah. But it's part of winter. Keep stretching. Keep
exercising. Keep the faith!
The Art Of Letting Go - Chapter 17 - "You Broke My Heart, But I Am
Forever Grateful" - Marisa Donnelly
I wasn't supposed to fall in love with you. You were dangerous eyes and
quick temper. You were argumentative and stubborn and so wonderfully
compassionate. I got lost in those eyes and felt safe in those arms.
We began as nothing. I told myself we were just having fun. That smiles
were because we enjoyed each other's company. That kisses were playful.
That we were happy not falling.
I never meant to kiss you so deeply. Maybe it was a line we
accidentally crossed, dancing in a bar just a little after midnight. Or
maybe it was when we explored each other's minds on a couch in
your living room confessing secrets we'd been too afraid to
share. Opening slowly, learning to trust again.
I wasn't supposed to fall in love with you, but I did. Layer by
layer. It happened exactly like the world says, slowly, then all at
once. Suddenly we were sharing pillows and paychecks and dreams.
Suddenly we whispered "I lover you" in the mornings and at night.
But then we unfolded. As beautiful things often do. We were both at
fault, maybe more than we want to admit. We cracked, shattered into
tiny pieces that were too difficult to put back together, but a part of
me still believed.
Then came the heart break. It was unexpected, yet a part of me knew it
was inevitable. I had fallen. I was breakable. I wasn't supposed to be
hurt. But I was just the same.
And you had transformed into someone I no longer knew, someone I didn't
think you were anymore, someone I never thought you could be. It broke
me. It unraveled me into little threads of myself. Little fragments of
my heart that I knew would take so long to mold back together.
But I forgave you.
In time. After tears. As I woke to the sun on a new day and saw
freedom, the weight lifted off my heart in forgiving you.
I am thankful for pool side drinks, for dog walks, for drives with the
window down. I am thankful for smiling, dancing, laughing, spinning.
You broke my heart but I am forever thankful for the moments, the
memories, For what I learned in losing you. What I deserve, the
immensity of my strength, my capacity to love, to let go.
I hope you know that you are forgiven.
And maybe one day you'll forgive yourself.
"Sometimes all you need is for someone to just be there, even if they
can't solve your problems. Just knowing there is someone who cares can
make all the difference." - sun.gazing.com
The best is yet to be!! MONA
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