Teen to Teen
Talk
The End of the
World
by
Elizabeth Horner
My high school
graduating
class was obsessed with predictions of the end of the world. We all
knew that the same year we would walk across the football field to
receive our diplomas--- green and white ceremonial gowns flapping
around our ankles, nervous eyes scanning the sky for clouds--- was
also supposed to be our last year of existence, if the Mayan’s
highly accurate calendar suddenly ending meant anything.
I doubt any of
us actually
believed in the mythology. But it was fun to talk as if we did. My
mom and I discussed plans to be together on December 21st. Friends
shared bucket lists, and the possibility that our release into the
‘real world’ was actually the reason for doomsday. And then we
would switch to other topics--- questions about our future extending
long after the date in question.
To be honest,
as we
approach the winter of 2013, I can’t even remember what happened
last year on that date, except that it wasn’t the end of all life
as we knew it. Whatever the details, I’m pretty sure that I got up,
had lunch, probably checked my Facebook account or did some pleasure
reading. I was also probably, at that point, still preparing for my
trip back home from my study abroad program in London--- a plane ride
which gave me no cause to fear unexpected circumstances. And in the
midst of all this nothing, the sheer and utter normalness of these
tasks, I learned an important lesson--- (Isn’t it strange: the idea
that you can learn something, not from new experiences, but for the
everyday taken-for-granted ones?)--- Life. Plods. On. Even if we
don’t expect it to. Whenever we think something is the end of the
world, it isn’t yet.
Of course,
there are
dangers more real than the story of the Mayan calendar, and
therefore, much more capable of casting a large shadow over us. And
it is true, that some of these shadows are inescapable: the loss of a
loved one, the guilt of a past mistake, the pain of an old injury….
Yet, for the most part these shadows are solar eclipses coming over
us only on rare occasion. Most of the things that we stress about
with the tenacity of a dog gnawing at a bone are not as
astronomically harmful. The break-up with your boyfriend after months
of drifting apart, the fight with your sister, a reduction in your
hours, can certainly be a dark time, but these shadows, while seeming
impenetrable are most likely the work of clouds, drifting in a long
line over your head and yet, destined to split apart….
In some ways,
fear of the
future is important. It motivates us to work harder, obey the rules
more, things that are vital we if we are to get the things we deserve
and need to strive to obtain. But if we can’t conjure up some faith
that things will turn out, eventually, there’s a chance that that
despair will make us give up altogether. A person who thinks that
tomorrow is the end of the world, and so spends all his money,
releases all the ties of responsibility--- how will that person react
to waking up to a still-intact earth the day after that? Quite as if
he brought on his own destruction.
The only thing
I can advise
is--- patience. Time is the only teacher that can tell you if a
problem is truly permanent or not, but most often, life’s lesson is
that things will sort themselves out. And someday we will be able to
look back on the last twenty years, the last forty or sixty, and see
how many “ends of the world” we have survived, see how much
smaller and insubstantial they have gotten when we look at them
through that rearview mirror of time.
There is a
Norse myth that
says that the world will end on February 22, 2014. Their version of
the Apocalypse, Ragnarok, will supposedly take place, and spirit off
billions of people. No disrespect to that ancient culture, but I
fully intend on attending school that day--- and the day after that,
in the hope of once again getting to wear a graduation gown. For
while that last day of my high school career really did signal the
end of one world, it was also the start of another.
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