Love
Vaster than Empires, and Judge More Slow
By:
Elizabeth Horner
The
rest of the crew couldn’t understand him. As an empath of sorts,
Ogsden should be the nicest of them all, the most careful to preserve
good relations among the few people who would be going with him to an
unexplored, and likely, uninhabited new world. Instead, he called up
every negative emotion they had, like drawing water from a well.
Eventually,
they learned to ignore him, and then to avoid his existence--- until
one day, Ogsden ventured into the planet’s sea of tall grasses and
disappeared forever.
~oOo~
In a
very basic sense, this is the plot line of Ursula Le Guin’s short
story, Vaster than Empires and More Slow, which I was asked to read
for my Postcolonial Ecologies class last semester. From the
beginning, I was intrigued by the idea that someone with unusual
sensitivity to the thoughts and feelings of others would, instead of
being sympathetic, becomes more--- well, sensitive--- in general.
Everything was a touchy subject for him: from everyone’s first,
uncontrollable reaction to his appearance, to the distaste they felt
afterwards at his ability to probe their deepest secrets. The more
they feared and mistrusted him, the more he felt the same for them,
and the emotional circle just kept on spiraling downwards.
And
yet, in spite of the originality in concept, this idea appears to
make perfect sense. How could anyone expect someone who was
constantly bombarded with people’s negative opinions--- forced to
share in their anxiety, depression, and heartbreak though he played
no role in bringing it about--- not become pessimistic? Why was he,
an emotional mirror, being blamed for giving an accurate reflection
of the atmosphere around him?
But
that is exactly what we do. Perhaps none of us have met an Ogsden,
but I believe that this same type of conflict appears in our daily
life. Something we don’t perceive ourselves to have done, is picked
up, and taken personally, by others. At work, you correct one of your
co-workers on how to use some of the office equipment, and don’t
realize that you are coming off arrogant in the process. In class,
you speak with false deference to a teacher and they see you as
disrespectful. You smile, icily, at your ex’s new girlfriend, and
right away, they both know you’re jealous. After all, it’s not
just the face you put over your emotions that gets conveyed to the
people around you--- oftentimes, they can sense what is below the
surface and see exactly what you don’t want them to.
This
was often Ogsden’s problem. His co-workers talked to him politely,
and therefore believed that they should be talked to politely in
return. But he understood that what they said and what they felt were
very different and disliked them for it. What’s more, he couldn’t
put on a false-face like they did. He was incapable of showing any
emotion that wasn’t genuine, or, for that matter, showing any
emotion that wasn’t genuine to the other person either. He could
be, literally, angry enough for the both of them.
Now
you may wonder at the point of this article. You’re sure that “be
nice” is part of the moral, somewhere, but no-one can control what
comes to their mind, uncalled for, sometimes, and those stray
thoughts do, in no way, make for a bad person. So, what might I say
instead? Perhaps, I could give the same advice your mother has, which
is, “If you can’t say something nice, don’t say it at all,”
but then I might remember the time that I went to school with a new
hair-cut that no-one commented on, and so realized it was probably
awful. No, no I’m not going to offer anything as straight-forward
as that.
Instead,
I’m going to ask that you do something that I did once I finished
the story: re-read Ogsden.
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